It will be years before...

Hello.

I'm not in a very good mood for the last half an hour. Once again I stumble across the same words that gave reason and title for this blog's existence. I remember back in 1983 hearing one doctor say "Oh, we're pretty close to finding solutions for your son's problem, but it will be... bla bla bla..." That's just about it.

I am a 30 year old man. I never thought I'd live this far, taking in consideration the way I treat my disease. I am diabetic. Millions of others, more or less like me, are also diabetic. They treat themselves more or less like me, some better, some worse. And it gets on my nerves (or what's left of them after 23 years of rollercoaster blood sugars and insulin shots) when I hear "It will be years before..."

I have a beautiful girlfriend, who is more like my wife nowadays, which has gone through a lot of pain with my diabetes. She has problems of her own, and inherited a good deal of worries when she decided to stick with me. She always does the same questions before I go to bed:

"Have you done your blood test?"
"Have you already eaten anything?"
"Do you know I love you more than I love the Sun?"

I wonder when will anyone say "In six months it will be ready!" or "In six years!" Or "No less than sixty years!". But for Christ's sake, be a little more specific.
Every time I read it, I get a storm glooming beneath my chest, as if an angry dragon is clashing within!

Who could stop these investigations which generate so much lousy time predictions? Who could be interested to endure the pain of diabetics and those who share their life and love? What ugly and ultimately sad minds could be set to stop something that could potentially bring some joy to this world's 230 million diabetics?

Pharm boys, I'd gladly pay you 10 times as much per month to live without it. Rent the bloody cure! I'll be first in line to pay. But let it come. Let it come!

Think about it, its a 230 million clients that have to pay or die ;)


5 a.m. Gotta sleep.
Do my test, eat if I have to, love her...